Anonymous
Candy I'm so angry at the guy who raped me I have no idea what to do with the anger. It's ruining my life

Honey luv know that Ihave know idea how to proper deal with this i stopped going to 3 separate therapists after they would tlel me that we needed to deal with mine before we could deal with other things lol.   I deal with it by purposefully triggering myself  or recreate situations to try and feel in contrl. Isn’t fucking great. Definitely use the anger to tell people who reply that you need to forgive him to fuck off. I think its good to be angry at him instead of yourself. When i’m trying to be healthy I watch these on youtube and think their catharsis is Healing. eek!!! Have you tried therapy?? I’ve found it helpful to let go things i’m willing to let go of. I think i’m trying to ruin my own life . I don’t think you should do that too. If you have health insurance u can call and ask for a list of therapists near u that are covered. Mine gave me first 3 sessions free if I did that and she said if i didnt like the therapist or vibe with her to call back and they would give me that 1 free session back and I could try someone else. If u dont or cant do therapy but want to or want something more then u can look up if there are any locaI support groups?   I think that you should cut bangs to feel in control of your body

Anonymous
im drunk and i miss my bf- hes been doing cocaine more and more often . his personality changing . have u seen this ? haev u advice ? someone who once was this cute sotner byo( weed) now doing coke so often being a meanie to me like i loved him 6 years but fuck i cjust well once i overdosed and he saved my life he went thru my benzo addict ion but i was limke just complacent u kno i was just docile. his addiction makes him like evil meanie butthead to me i was neever mean just not there.

Let me hit u with my 5 AM thoughts…  Yes granted it was H but just bc ur an addict does not make u that way.  i was  evil meanie butthead was definitely not in a toxic loved ones like shit sort of way. I really dont know how to judge this like if  ‘mean’ at the level where I should be like ‘Have you talked to him and made him aware of the situation how he is what he is doing to you what its doing to you?’ like if its ditching u to get high or pick up or u guys getting in a fight if u tell him to slow down or when ask if hes high  where u jknow its just his addiction  ugh I dont know hwo to explain what I mean if u went to rehab then like the things they ask ur loved  to raise their hand  if u did that?  If it is that u still have NO obligation to have to put up with any of it and can leave. Should leave probably. It at the very minimum  is a very toxic relationship even if it wasnt like that before. It doesnt matter because its now not before.   Or  if its to the point where  u could it abuse . I think its common to not be considered ‘docile’ in active addiction but not to become so cruel and abusive.  2 of the mean  boys I talk about   had coke problems too and the way they were and things they id i can say I dont think had anytyhing at all to do with their drug issues. I think if ur abusive, even just when ur in active addiction or high, that that is somethiing thas inside u as a person not just as an addict I know so many coke addicts and none of them are ever like that (OF COURSE: that i know about/my personal experience with them…However if they are like that just behind close doors thehn that is alsojust  more ‘classic’ signs they are just a abuser). T he fact that he saved your life when you overdose and stayed with u when u going through that or that u have been together long is independent of what you are doing now. The way he is treating u and making u feel is separate and u dont owe it to him to have to put up with that. I know u cant really compartmentalize the two emotionally and jsut easily decide to leave but I think it` is best for u ur mental health ur own addiction happiness life!!!!!!!!! What u feel is valid and I love u!

Anonymous
Hi sweetheart. Tell me which songs and movies and poems to cry abut?

hi honey have a kiss kiss

some songs- ‘tragic girl’ by weezer, ‘epilogue’ and ‘sylvia’ by the antlers but the entire hospice album rly,  ‘fourth of july’ ‘the only thing’ ‘visions of gideon’ and ‘mystery of love’ by sufjan stevens,  ‘let me go’ by all get out, ‘lua’ and ‘its cool we can still be friends’  by bright eyes, ‘valentine’ by fiona apple, ‘white ferrari’ and ‘moon river’ by frank ocean, ‘candy’ by paolo nutini,  ‘pawn shop blues’ and ‘get drunk’ by lana, ‘my chasm’ by mount eerie, ‘sleeper 1972, by manchester orchestra,‘slow slow’ by the national

some movies- candy, meadowland, requiem for a dream, christiane f, red desert, grave of fireflies, interstellar, blue valentine,  synecdoche, new york , the fall, short term 12, her, paris,texas , buffalo66, bicycle thieves, call me by your name, betty blue, hotel chevalier,  the fountain, three colors trilogy: blue, blue is the warmest color.. but the movie as a whoole i dont like that much i just forward till things start downhill…its got some good sad scenes, I got kicked out of the the theatre during eight below for sobbing so loud

some poems- ‘the order of things’ by bob hicock, ‘two at a table for one’ by sarah kate osborn, ‘i had a dream about you’ ‘straw house, straw dog’ ‘dots everywhere’  and ‘little beast’ by richard siken, ‘you were conceived’ by warsan shire, ‘you never forget your first’ by daphne gottlieb, ‘the fourth step’ and ‘patron saint of manic depressives’ by clementine von radics, ‘trigger warning’ by karina stow, ‘eighteen days without you’ by anne sexton

 some might be too specific to my emo ass sry!

Anonymous
Hi candy, I was wondering if you've ever dealt with body acne & how. I've begun to break out in back & upper arms for th first time in 23 yrs & freakin out ~xo

Oh no I havent thaknfully! But a month or so ago I got a white head right in the top of my cleavage area and i popped it and it left a dark scar so when I was manic getting a fuckin facial from groupon and she was like “Want a peel too?” and i was like Yes do this spot on my chest! I didnt even ask what kind and now you cant see the scar because she gave me a2nd degree Chemcial  BURN!!! Go to reddit/r/skincareaddiction